Well hello there blog. I have neglected you…but now I am back…at least for a little awhile!
I’ve been doing some major soul searching as far as my photography is concerned. I tend to go through cycles where I love it, then I hate it because it consumes too much of my time. Or I get frustrated because I don’t feel like I’m progressing the way I would like. Or I stop feeling fulfilled by it because it becomes “a job” that I do to please others. Or I get in a rut, producing images that I think others want to see, not what I like to see.
I just returned from the Clickaway Conference put on by Clickinmoms. I took some amazing classes and listened to a few speakers that really struck something deep inside my core. I’ve been asking myself why I started in photography in the first place and where I see myself headed with it.
Photography has been my way of holding on to the sweet memories of my life. Holding on to the details, relationships, and places that I don’t want to forget. It has been my muse, my source of inspiration, my outlet for the creativity that is forever swirling within me.
So my challenge right now is finding a way to stay happy with this hobby. I realized this weekend that the only way to do that is to shoot 100% from my heart. Putting aside the expectations of others, and the pressure to please. My heart lies with lifestyle/documentary type of photography, so that is where I am focusing. I can’t do the perfectly posed stuff anymore. It’s just not me. I feel nothing when I shoot a posed session.
So, my sessions will involve a lot of interaction, talking, laughing, feeling, and celebrating relationships…with a little natural posing . That’s the only way I can stay fulfilled. I am making a promise to myself that if I am not feeling happy after I shoot for others, I will stop doing sessions. It’s just not worth my time away from my family if it’s not making me happy, ya know?
Here’s the reason for this post….
To help me stay focused with my goals I am starting a happiness project that will last for 100 days, ending on Christmas Eve. I will be joining my sweet friends Laurie and Courtney with this project as well. Hopefully we can keep each other going till the end!
I’ll try and post most days. I am doing it a little different than I did my 365 project. Rather than only posting images I am taking each day, I am going to also look through my archives for images that bring me happiness. Images that are just sitting on my computer waiting to be celebrated. Images that speak to my heart!
So my posts will be a mixture of mostly new images, but some oldies that have been forgotten. I want to remember why I took these images and share my feelings behind them. And hopefully I can get this all in a book at the end to remind myself of my many blessings and talents…or as Elizabeth Gilbert said at my conference…”the jewels that are hidden within me, waiting to shine.” She gave some amazing advice on seeing your work as a vocation, not a career. Not measured by success, but by the joy it brings you.
Here’s to finding joy again!